CLPL

Today marks the 7th week of my life at the Crimson family, though it's only the 7th week but it seriously felt like I have been there for 7 months. Lol. Second perm job after graduation and well I can say there's so many differences between working in a SME and a larger corporation. Working in a SME has its pros and cons, and same goes for working in a larger corporation. Have been sort of suffering from a culture shock but am slowly adapting to the environment. Good and nasty people of all sorts, I am slowly meeting them one by one, and still learning how to deal with them and not let their nasty actions affect my mood. Glad that within our department at least the Ops team are a bunch of nice and funny people. Seriously cheers me up and brightens up the atmosphere whenever I am feeling so stressful and overwhelmed. Still remembered how we laughed till tears come out when sm was tricked last fri. Just too funny. Workload is just crazy and I am sacrificing my exercise time, my free time after work jus to clear backlogs and catch up on my work. Have been doing so much OTs that a colleague commented that I am married to the co. Lol. Month-end and quarterly closings is the worst. Did my first closing last month and it was so overwhelming that I had to talk to my FM about it. People have been asking me if I have regretted leaving my prev job, since my current job seems so much more stressful and busier, till the extent I have to make sacrifices for work. Well, my answer is a firm no, no regrets. I knew that even if i stayed I wouldnt be any much more happier either. Sacrifices are inevitable, and I get to learn new things too. We need to move on in order to have progression. Hopefully as time goes I will get used to the workflow here. 

So basically my life revolves around work and studies, and nothing much more. Free time are mostly spent exercising, sleeping, watching dramas and meeting up with friends. Have been skipping some meet-ups because I am so tired and sometimes all I want is jus to nua, esp on Fri where my energy level is almost 0.  My current aim now is to clear my last 2 modules of ACCA so I need to be very focused and disciplined for the next 2 months. Study time is really very precious now with my longer working hours and also the fact that I will be away for a week in Nov. At one glance it seems like I have "no life" but honestly I am liking it. No time for unnecessary distractions, and besides studies career progression has become one of my top priorities in life.

Time really flies. One more month to Japan trip! To think I still thought there's still a long way to go when we booked the tickets. And in a blink of an eye it will be xmas again! The theme for this year has even been officially announced already. It's scary how time zooms. Too fast for us to catch up. 

You have moved out of my life, but hatred and disgust did not fade, and I know it will always be there and it's gonna be a painful prick in my heart. I am proud and glad that I emerged as a much stronger and independent person, and I doubt that I will ever want to go through similar emotions again.

~cheerios~